I was sitting here watching TV and caught the last half hour of that movie "You've Got Mail". Cute movie, old movie, one of the classic romantic comedies of the 90's. It was the 90's I think.
I opened up my Smirnoff Cherry Lemonade frozen thingy. It's quite tasty and after this blog I'm heading to bed. I knew it would make me tired, because I'm a lightweight and I don't drink but maybe two times a year. I use to have Margarita weekend birthdays, but I stopped those about 3 years ago. Probably because my birthday hasn't been on a weekend.
I've been having such introspective thoughts this evening, even more so after opening my frozen drink.
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I've been busy studying Buddhism. I find their philosophy very intriguing. They have a positive spin on even the most dire of circumstances. I like it. It's refreshing. I have adapted some of Buddhist teachings in my own life. I do a meditation every morning that a friend of mine told me about. And if I can't do it in the morning, I chant it to myself at work, or do it in the evening. I try to stay positive no matter what happens. I give thanks for every little thing. I try to keep peace about me no matter what happens in my day.
For instance, without going into detail there was a situation with someone me and a friend of mine had to deal with. Normally, I would have gossiped and talked ill of this person out of sheer frustration. Instead, I told my friend that I had listened to my meditation music and nothing was going to ruin my day. Not even this person's negative attitude. She stormed out of the room we were in and slammed the door behind her. I wasn't going to let her mood control mine. I understood her frustration, and while it wasn't warranted in the moment, she went her way and I continued with my day.
End of story.
There is also another person I deal with frequently. An "acquaintance" of sorts. This person use to get to me with her superior persona. But lately, I am finding that the more I extend peace her way, her words don't get my goat so to speak anymore.
Am I growing spiritually?
Perhaps.
Not sure.
I'm just enjoying this little bit of quiet in my head and peace flowing through my body.
It's a pleasant change.
Now if I could just pass this peaceful place onto my children, our lives would be good. I know it would take something like a miracle for my kids to be more peaceful and less stressful and angry, but I believe anything is possible.
Including my kids behaving a little better.
Not PERFECT.
Just better.
I don't know what I believe to be honest. Is there a God isn't there a God? Or a Goddess? Or some great and powerful Oz? I do know for a fact that someone is watching over me, maybe it's my ancestors or a guardian angel, or my ancestors who really are guardian angels.
But there are so many variables to having faith in any one certain deity, I just can't be sure.
So I just sit down every night, or whenever I have a complex situation or even if my day is going good. I will say, "Whoever is listening, give me a sign," or "Help me out here please, I'm lost." I usually find the answers or a blessing is given to me and I give thanks for that blessing.
It's kind of like anonymous donors. Someone gives a gift to a charity. The charity publicly thanks them. The blessings of donations continue to flourish. It could be from the same anonymous donor, or a known donor but giving thanks, in my opinion anyway, is like circling the universe with a warm hug of love.
And when one feels the love it is often reciprocated.
Even on a bad day.
So, that's my philosophy on philosophy of Buddhism and spirituality in general.
I don't like the word religion, it's too constricting. The word Spirituality, however, leaves the door open for other belief systems to embrace your beliefs and join you.
Does that make sense to you?
It does to me.
Okay, I'm going to go for now. Yes, this is my three blog limit for the day.
It's only 9:30 here and I am so tired.
Too much thinking and too much drinking makes Barbie really tired.
Have a lovely night/day/morning wherever you are.
Thank you for stopping by.
I'll be back tomorrow I am sure.
Until then........Breathe....
~Magickal Graphics~
