All Things Randomly Written Here

I am happy to be back here.

It's been a while.

I am still waiting for my own internet, but for now it's when I have friends or opportunities at coffee shops to log on here.

It's been a week for me. It's been one heck of  a month.

Heck it's been one heck of a year for me.
Through it all, however, and by God's grace and strength, I am still standing.

I have managed to incur, in just one week a broken down car(thermostat gasket...pricey little bugger), the flu(or something like it), I smacked my head on the cabinet at work. I was washing paint brushes leaning over that preschool sized sink and when I stood up...forgot about those cabinets there above me....'SMACk!" went my head and I just wanted to go home at that point.

I broke my five-dollar reading glasses as I was talking to one of my student's parents at work. I spilled my coffee all over my kitchen counter on my way out the door to pick my kids up from their dad's and take them to school and me to work.  I had a 2 liter bottle of Coke explode on my counter and cabinet doors and floor.

Yay for the fun of  chaos to keep me on my toes and keep me awake throughout the day!


I have had much disappointment through the weeks and months here.

I have some things going on with my son and my grandbabies.  Things I cannot talk about right now, but I will say I have spoken to them on the phone and facetime and it's been a blessing despite the circumstances.

That is all I can share for now....until things are resolved regarding all of them.

But after many years I got to hear from all of them.

And it brought tears to my eyes to hear their precious voices and see their beautiful faces in photos and online.

God has been good regarding them and t heir welfare. Praise God for that.

My job is amazing.

I had a kid ask me on the playground if there was a baby in my belly, to which I replied, "Nope, I just like cake". *giggles*

I know I am a tad bit "fluffy " in the middle. I stress eat and with all the stress of late, I am surprised I am not 500 pounds. I will count my blessings here.

We have a Christmas program coming up soon. We have started to practice for that. I am so excited to be a part of that. It's fun. They make me cry every stinkin' year. No kidding.
Every spring program I need half a case of tissues for my nose an icepacks for my eyeballs they are swollen so badly from crying.

Hmmm.....cops are on the premises....this is a fairly nice neighborhood I live in now. I feel like
 a roving reporter with the latest news feed.

Not much of a reporter though.

Not sure what happened. I saw 2 squads on our way down here(my daughter and I) and the motor was running on one squad with no cop in the car and she says "why would they leave it running?"
I said "someone would be dumb to steal a squad" and she said "It's still dumb to leave it running".

I digress.

Your thoughts?

I really like the apartment. Been here a year and one month now.  Signed a 13 month lease I love it here so much.  It's quiet, the neighbors are absolutely the nicest.  If you stroll back to past posts say, oh, 18 months to 2 years ago from my previous residence, with the rats and roaches and the loud music and the smell of weed permeating 24/7 and cops and ICE outside in the neighborhood, this is definitely  Beverly Hills by far. (*giggles to self) Maybe not Beverly Hills but a lot nicer and homier than the last place I resided for 6 lonnnnnnng, intense years of mine and my kids lives.

Speaking of my kids lives, my boys are now sophomores and my daughter a freshman.

Where the heck did the time go?

My boys are on the varsity football team and yes, they DO play.
They are pretty darn good. The team is awesome too.

My daughter is she is proud to be a Science and Math geek. She wears that label loud and proud. She is reading some book by a guy named Bill Bryson. I think that's his  name.

My 19 year old is still obsessed with tornadoes and roller coasters. I love that kid. I enjoy our phone conversations a lot. He cracks me up.

My 20 year old is in a band. He plays drums. He is pretty good. The band is good too, but I love watching him on video playing those drums.

My 24 year old is really doing well with his music. He raps. I am not a fan of rap, but his is amazing. I had friends and coworkers listen and they all agree, he's got a gift.

And lastly, my 27 year old, I pray for him the most out of all my kids and grandkids.  He is such a blessing but right now is finding his way home.  I have faith and know that one day, he will be a God story and will share his life with someone to help them too.

All of us have had a mess we can turn into a message.  Some messes are bigger some are smaller, but not one soul on this earth is exempt from messes.
Period.

So that's it for now.

Hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I enjoyed writing it.

It's my therapy.

Oh and I'm writing a book.

I'll keep you posted.  I'm not a famous blogger but I hope to be semi-famous as a book author some day.

Have a great day!!!

Psalm 41:10

Random Ramblings Post ....Because I Can

I am so happy that I can blog again.

Although it isn't as often as I would like, I will take what I can get where blogging is concerned.

This past month has been a nightmare.  All I know is I am so happy that the good Lord got me through it all.

We had some interesting moments though, my daughter and I.

It started when we were at Target.
We were admiring the St . Patty's Day outfits they were selling; one in particular caught our eyes. It was a top of a leprechaun shirt, beneath the shirt was a pair of long pants with clovers all over them.
We were laughing hysterically at the outfit when all of a sudden some random guy comes, literally out of nowhere from behind the racks, and says "You should buy the pants and she should get the top!"

We were cracking up at this guy.

We left the men's department and headed to the make-up aisle, then to electronics and toys and we walked back past the men's department where the leprechaun outfits were and I kid you not that man, once again, pops out of nowhere and says to us, "Last chance!"

My daughter and I looked at each other and just burst...out...laughing.
Non-stop laughter, the kind that makes ya pee your pants(almost for me anyway).
I then asked my daughter, "Wasn't he wearing a different shirt before?"  We both burst into laughter as my daughter is nodding at me in agreement.

Yeah, it's a "You had to be there Moment".

There was just a weird vibe these past few weeks; at work, at home, on the road, at church.
Weird.

I remember asking a coworker of mine if anyone in our admin office seemed different.  I told her it was weird asking her that but I felt like I was talking to these people I knew and loved the past 3-6 years of my employment there and they were taken over by aliens or something.

Or maybe I was overtaken by an alien. Perhaps my brain was anyway.

*shrugs*

I got sick as a dog last week while volunteering at church. I only went in because the poor woman who runs the kids ministry has a low turnout of volunteers so I went in, looking and feeling like death. I got home from work that day, took a 40 minute nap, hoping whatever was making my stupid body feel like death would vanish.

No such luck.
I cried.
And I prayed...that I would be able to go home early. No babies, no need for me to be there.
I got to church and the pastor wanted to give me a hug, the director wanted to hug me and I held my ginger ale in the pocket of my coat, hands inside there as well and flinched as I said to them both, "I'm sick, please don't come near me."

The pastor then mouths in my direction, "Why are you here? Go home."
I stayed.
I barely made it.
I was white as a ghost and felt just as cold.

I was on my way out the door when I knew I wasn't going to make it home.
Made a pit stop to the bathroom.
Tinkled.
Washed my hands.
Saw an older woman who is a very dear acquaintance/friend of mine and she says to me "You don't look so good. You look pale."
I said to her, "I'm sick."
She proceeds to tell me all about her hubby's sickness and before she could finish, I say "I am so sorry but I am about to be sick," and quick as I could I ran to the stall.

You can figure the rest.
No need to go there.
As  I was up and exit the bathroom I start to walk towards the lobby and there, standing staring at me is the church secretary, my friend, and the husband of another friend of mine.  He says to me, "Are  you okay?"
(I am embarrassed at this point, but touched by all of their concern)
I respond with a smile and a nod and say "I just got sick, but I will be fine."

I was shaking and probably more pale than I was when I entered the bathroom. To be honest, I just wanted a warm bed and some Gatorade.

I touched my friend's arm and thanked her for her concern.  I  told my friend's hubby that I would be okay.

Apparently nobody believed me because as I unlocked my car door, he comes out and says to me, "Hey Barb! I can arrange for someone to drive your car home and I will drive you home."(I live like literally ten minutes away)

"NO thank you, I just want to go home. Thanks anyway."
Again he asks just to make sure; I nod, smile and thank him again.

God bless my brothers and sisters in Christ.

I love my church family.

I should go.

Have a few other blogs to work on.

I want to post a song I really love first though.

If I remember how to do this.

Until next time.....(oh, big news coming soon btw) ;)

Psalm 91

I MADE IT!!!!!!!

Hello World!!!

I am back....if only for a moment.
I had a really weird week.  For starters, I have been having really weird dreams lately.

They involve...of all things...…

BABIES!!!!

Everyday this week I have dreamt of babies:

-Holding a baby

-Soothing a baby

...and the scariest of all(not the actual dream just the notion of this happening)...me being pregnant and feeling the baby moving.  No joke I actually FELT this "baby" move in my "stomach" in my dream. It was so weird I "felt" an elbow or something moving....

….then I woke up.

Oh my goodness!!! I hit some button on this chromebook and yes I spelled that wrong but if I go back to correct it I will be here for four hours typing two paragraphs of blogging.  So anyway, I hit that stupid button and it scared the crap out of me because it highlighted my words in yellow and blue and some "computer man voice"  was reading my blog.

My daughter is here with me and I have two little friends who are coloring with us here. I did a sketch.  I would share it with you however, I am afraid if I tried to take a pic with this and post it I would send it to someone in Poland or the arctic.

I accidentally spit on my screen here and my daughter was laughing at me because I went to wipe the tiny spittle off my screen with my thumb and I moved the whole page to the left and was like "whoa cowgirl! where'd it go?"

I figured it out.

Back to the baby dreams....
probably due to the meds I am on...
because last week....
I fell....
BAM!!!!
FLAT!!!!
FLOOR MEET BARB!!!

Yes....
I fell at work.
In front of five students, my co-teacher and a parent.

Missed a day of work.
Barely made my ladies bible study on Friday...she had no stairs so I made it work.
Made church on Sunday.

And tried to work the rest of this week from Monday on without being a big baby about it.
My neighbor teacher next door yelling at me to be a baby and stay off my leg another few days.

I didn't listen.

I survived!!!

I am a child of  God!!!!(my favorite song)

Anyway....I am gonna go before I throw this Chromebook through the window and scare the children.  Who puts the mouse thingy right where you are supposed to rest your wrists???

Insanity  I tell you.

Anyway....thanks for reading.

Be back in two weeks.....

Psalm 27

I AM BACK!!!! :)

Well, it's been a while. I have so much to share and not sure if I can do it all in o This format is so much different. And I also lost my background images. I used an html code "back in the day" but apparently those are long gone with the chat rooms and msn groups of long ago. (sigh) I also don't know how to use this stupid chrome book. It's not really stupid, it's the operator that is I am pretty sure. (laughs hysterically to self) Pardon the silly parentheses but I am not sure how to enter emojis or the like. 

And for some reason I have this little blue circle following each letter I type. Man, I feel old all of a sudden. I thought blogging would be like riding a bike. It's been what?? Like, two years maybe since my last blog? I don't know if I should start out with the good stuff or the bad stuff. Hmmm...2018 was awesome and 2019...pardon this expression,...but it sucks so far. I normally don't talk like that, seriously I don't like talking like that. I am a Christian woman, but that does not, by any means make me perfect. Nor does it make me refrain from EVER using a swear word or two but I don't like to use swear words and try to use other words like "Jiminy Cricket" vs. the other JC others will use in vain. I definitely do NOT use the Lord's name in vain.

Anyway....where was I???...oh yeah...trying to find out why my cursor disappeared. And updating the one or two people who may read this at some point and time. I had a readership base of two at one time. 

Yeah that's right...two followers.

 Not sure where my friend Eb went to. Maybe he is still around and will fall off his chair when he sees a notification in his inbox that I have returned to the internet. 

My other follower, Rae, is gone. 

As in forever. 

As in....I will have to wait to see her at the pearly gates of Heaven.

 I still haven't had time to grieve over her passing. Because a week and a half after I lost her, I lost another friend of mine and my daughter's. It hit us both out of nowhere, Like a ton of bricks. The news hit my daughter hard that night. 

I still can't believe both women are gone. They both deserve their own blogs. I have so much to say about both of them. Those will both be coming soon. 

Anyway...I am glad to be back. I enjoy reading my old blogs and look forward to writing new ones. Maybe even an entirely new blog site. We shall see. I guess that is all for now. I am still teaching and still loving it. My kids are still awesome. They are older and some a bit sassier....but I don't love them any less for that. There is a song by The Afters called Well Done, it just came on the tv..listen to the lyrics.

I miss those I loved and lost. 

Guess I will get goingfor now.

I figured out why everything looked weird on here while I typed.  I had the html button instead of compose button pressed.

Silly me.

Gotta run.

Remember Jesus loves you.....really he does. :)

Psalm 23